date:         29/08/09

location:    newcastle

weather:    windy 

time:         0242

 

today, is not a great day for me as i worried bout the gifts i passed to Q, she might think that im working on something which is useless....but , deep down in my heart im not asking anything from her..i just wanna help her life out....but im still worried that she still not happy for what i did....to b honest, i think nobody will loved her as much as i do..i can say even her own family...they r too busy with their own life..they looks stressful n tired all the time..is this the life u want Q? i always think u first as my priority is bcos i really loves u with my whole heart is that a wrong? ...why did u said that u dont loved me anymore!!!!!!do u know how hurt is my heart when i heard that ,,,i didnt do anything wrong ....i always try to give u my best not bcos i wanna show off in front of u..is bcos i really wanna care for u....even ur ex bf treat u so badly ..u will not said that u dont love him anymore when u broke...why did u do that to me....is really really hurt!!!!!! i never thought u will treat me this way...no even a single second of thought....cos for me even if God wanted me to kill u i rather die for u.....