date:         31/08/09

location :   still newcastle

time:         0132

weather:    rainy

 

time flies..it had been 19 days Q didnt call or even contact me in any method of communication..reallly miss her ..but cant really do anything now..

try to focus on my plan...hope it all works out well...so that i still stand a chance for Q to come back if she wants..i really dont mind how selfish she said she was////i dont see it that way..i loved whoever she is ..she is the one cared and loved the most ..how can this being replace......i wish she could call me soon..i miss her  so much....really thinking to fly back to hk to see her...but i know that she willl not b happy to see me... 

 

my heart turn grey sometimes and my body is getting weaker,,,painful...but nobody actually care!!!